I taste good :-)

Hmm so tonight i have been drinking! not a huge amount but enough to make me horny!

so as i sit here playing with myself and sucking my fingers i am reassured that i am still highly sexed and i taste awesome :-) and i met a cute guy :-) it's all good :-p

Not a nice person :-(

Hmm so not my usual sexual rant but something i felt the need to share and i love getting your feedback on facebook and twitter because you guys rock :-p even if you don't actually join or leave messages here i love ya anyway :-D

Also Mr Ex perhaps actually about time you stopped reading this because quite simply it's never going to be anything you want to hear :-(

Hmmm so as some of you may know, the exish type person is dating a 19 year old! something I've found hard to deal with i put my hands up to that but i was coping well, i really was getting there so when facebook decided to display said 19 year old as a friend suggestion due to us having two friends in common well you can imagine it did not go down well to find out said girl actually went to school with my best friend's daughter! damaging to say the least.

add to this me being a complete bitch about the child, well then obviously i feel bad, i was very mean, not to her obviously, and i was perhaps just venting a little but then to find she maybe had similar said in school made me feel really crappy! I really didn't mean it, she's just a child and I'm very sorry! even though she wont see this and will never know i was mean :-) I'm slightly disturbed that i am that person :-(

ooooh does it make me even worse that my whole reason for doing this is to make myself feel better?

Am I ill?

Hmmm so I'm worried i might be ill? I'm managing on a single masturbation most days and I'm not all that horny? what does this mean? I can't remember the last time i was like this feels a little strange? Hoping it'll come back if i start having sex again? but i don't know! Think maybe I'm just feeling a little emotionally delicate and that's having an effect?

I'm not sure if it's a good thing? It's less painful, but I'm worried it's gone forever? Nope I'm actually sure it's just because I'm a little raw at the moment and that's making me just need a cuddle and no other strings attached :-) well i hope so maybe? Is a low sex drive a bad thing? Hmmm interesting.....

Less masturbation!

Hmm so i read somewhere that the more you masturbate the higher your sex drive! not sure if it's true but thought as i masturbate ALOT and I'm ALWAYS horny that perhaps if i stop masturbating then i might not be so horny, and well, I'm still masturbating daily i can't help it! but only once maybe twice but that's it and actually I'm perhaps a little bit better? I'm still horny but bearably so, I think. Also not getting any so this is actually a good thing although not masturbating is quite hard and maybe why I'm not horny for sex because I'm spending so much time trying not to masturbate! anyway just wanted to share that :-p
Was gonna have a little personal rant but decided against it :-)

is age but a number?

Hmmm so i sort of think maybe this is the case but also think a lot of things need to be taken into consideration :-p

personally i couldn't date someone that much younger i did try recently but at the stage i realised they were closer to my daughters age than mine it made me feel like a dirty perv! :-p Saying that a friend recently slept with a 24 year old definitely closer to her 19 year old daughters age than hers and i didn't really approve although she wasn't about to date him which sort of made it worse a little predatory? hmm then another friend male this time slept with a 19 year old he's 31 sort of thought it was OK until i really thought about and thought my daughter is only six years younger :-/ makes me struggle to be OK with that lol not that I'm about to cut contact because of that although my other friend has now nicknamed him paedo :-p and I'll be sure to give him a hard time for it :-p taking it the other way i was dating someone 19 years older but think when you get to my age it's more of age being just a number and in life terms we were at the same-ish stage? oh anyway I'm not convinced it's OK to prey on the young :-p what are we thinking people? and is it more acceptable for men?

i donned the strap on!

Sorry we always seem to come back to this but well it became an issue but well we did it! If I'm honest it was a bit of an anti-climax? I think i may have expected too much? My biggest problem was that it was over too quickly i guess and i figure i should just have learnt to be patient but well it's done now and it's left me with no real desire to do it again and seen as I've just finished with the man that let me that's maybe a good thing :-) although maybe a new victim would have more self control? ha ha ;-p

So what went wrong? Well he says he didn't need the reach around ;-p so in future i guess one or the other unless I'm in a rush?

I am glad i got to do it though, not every woman can say she fucked a man up the arse with a strap on :-D